Sometimes I let myself get too far ahead. I get my hopes up and I let my imagination run wild with all the possibilities. And more often than not, I am let down. I end up feeling like I've lost something I never had in the first place. It's not the best trait I have and I know that, but it's a hard one to shake. Even when I tell myself that I won't do it this time, that this time will be different, I end up feeling disappointed.
Right now I'm dealing with the part where I tell myself not to get my hopes up. I am trying so hard not to think about the "what if's" and the "and then we could's." I haven't gotten the blow of defeat yet, but it's hard to believe that's not what's coming next.
Part if the problem is that I am terribly impatient (another quality of mine that I could stand to work on). I don't like waiting to find out. And since I have more time to think than I care to have the imagination comes into play. You see the problem? I am trying to stay positive. Tell myself that it's too soon to know anything, so just put it out of my head for now and be excited if something does happen, rather than be annoyed that nothing has as of yet. Not everyone works on my pace (or as quickly as I'd like) so I just have to "hang tight" and see what happens...
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Good Morning Turned Bad
Maybe bad is too strong of a word. But the morning was going well, and now I've been thrown off for the whole day.
Let me explain. This morning, I woke up at 5am to run with the hubs-to-be. Although I wasn't excited about getting up, we did, and the weather was perfect for a run. We did our "long run" (not long to anyone else I'm sure) and made decent time. Or so I thought. We knew the mileage for our loop, but it didn't seem quite right because the "short" piece of it was taking us as long as the long piece. It definitely required looking into further.
So we got home, had breakfast, and the hubs-to-be headed out to work early. Unfortunately, he forgot to grab the trash to go out on his way out the door. So I figured I'd take it out when I left, hoping the trash truck hadn't come by that time. Well right as I was about to leave, I heard the truck in the next alley over from us. So I was off! (Only being able to take the trash out twice a week means it HAS to go out or we get smelly garbage).
Being that I left the house a little early, I took my time walk to the T, and even stopped to get coffee. It was while I was getting onto the T that I realized my day would be off. As I went to check the time, I realized I had no watch. Nor did I have my engagement ring. My heart sank. But I was already on the train and it was too late to go back. I NEVER forget my watch or ring, so I'm just feeling naked. I also have a small tattoo on my wrist that I don't care to flash around in the work setting, but I have no watch to hide it. So I guess it's just a bare day.
But it gets worse! When I got to work I used mapmyrun.com to see just how long our loop is, and it is shorter than we thought! The "long" part of the run is .1 less than we though (so .2 total because we do a loop), and the "short" part, is actually only .1 shorter than our long part! What a mess. And it added about a minute to what we thought we were averaging per mile. What a bummer.
So yeah. No ring. Short run. Feeling totally off.
Let me explain. This morning, I woke up at 5am to run with the hubs-to-be. Although I wasn't excited about getting up, we did, and the weather was perfect for a run. We did our "long run" (not long to anyone else I'm sure) and made decent time. Or so I thought. We knew the mileage for our loop, but it didn't seem quite right because the "short" piece of it was taking us as long as the long piece. It definitely required looking into further.
So we got home, had breakfast, and the hubs-to-be headed out to work early. Unfortunately, he forgot to grab the trash to go out on his way out the door. So I figured I'd take it out when I left, hoping the trash truck hadn't come by that time. Well right as I was about to leave, I heard the truck in the next alley over from us. So I was off! (Only being able to take the trash out twice a week means it HAS to go out or we get smelly garbage).
Being that I left the house a little early, I took my time walk to the T, and even stopped to get coffee. It was while I was getting onto the T that I realized my day would be off. As I went to check the time, I realized I had no watch. Nor did I have my engagement ring. My heart sank. But I was already on the train and it was too late to go back. I NEVER forget my watch or ring, so I'm just feeling naked. I also have a small tattoo on my wrist that I don't care to flash around in the work setting, but I have no watch to hide it. So I guess it's just a bare day.
But it gets worse! When I got to work I used mapmyrun.com to see just how long our loop is, and it is shorter than we thought! The "long" part of the run is .1 less than we though (so .2 total because we do a loop), and the "short" part, is actually only .1 shorter than our long part! What a mess. And it added about a minute to what we thought we were averaging per mile. What a bummer.
So yeah. No ring. Short run. Feeling totally off.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
A Crazy Week
This past week has been crazy. Totally and utterly nuts. I had things going on every night, and just could not for the weekend to arrive. Luckily it's been a good and relaxing one.
A few big things have happened this week, but I'm not sure how it will all play out. I can't go into much detail yet, but hopefully in the next few weeks it will all come to fruition.
This week was good for me though. I had been feeling (and still do to a lesser degree) in a bit of a funk. I'm a little bored with life...from work to work outs. I needed to change things up. Luckily being busy this week and getting a few interesting emails helped, but I'm still not feeling like myself completely, but I think a couple more busy days and some simple changes in my routine and I'll be good. At least I hope.
A few big things have happened this week, but I'm not sure how it will all play out. I can't go into much detail yet, but hopefully in the next few weeks it will all come to fruition.
This week was good for me though. I had been feeling (and still do to a lesser degree) in a bit of a funk. I'm a little bored with life...from work to work outs. I needed to change things up. Luckily being busy this week and getting a few interesting emails helped, but I'm still not feeling like myself completely, but I think a couple more busy days and some simple changes in my routine and I'll be good. At least I hope.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Hate Mail
Here are a few letters I'd like to send...
Dear bugs that bit me while I slept,
F-you. I have three large welts because of you. And one is ON MY FACE. You gross bugs were crawling on my face while I slept and I hate you. These damn bites are painful too. Because of you I look like someone punched me in the forehead. Get the hell out of my bedroom.
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Dear gaggle of pre-teen dancers on the T this morning,
SHUT UP. I do not care that there is a boy dancer to flirt with, and I do not want to hear your insestant giggling. NO ONE is excited that you memorized the boy's dance by watching his class once, nor do we want to see you do it during our morning commute. I am on my way to work and would appreciate a few more minutes of quiet. Next time you're on the train at rush hour, put a ballet slipper in it.
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Dear people who have not yet RSVPed to my wedding,
PLEASE send in your cards. I don't want to be the annoying bride who calls everyone to check in, but I really need to know asap if you're coming or not. I've already stamped those little cards for you, so just fill them out and drop them in the mail box. Please. So I can move ahead with the preparations for my wedding that is SIX WEEKS AWAY. Thanks a bunch.
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TGIF.
Dear bugs that bit me while I slept,
F-you. I have three large welts because of you. And one is ON MY FACE. You gross bugs were crawling on my face while I slept and I hate you. These damn bites are painful too. Because of you I look like someone punched me in the forehead. Get the hell out of my bedroom.
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Dear gaggle of pre-teen dancers on the T this morning,
SHUT UP. I do not care that there is a boy dancer to flirt with, and I do not want to hear your insestant giggling. NO ONE is excited that you memorized the boy's dance by watching his class once, nor do we want to see you do it during our morning commute. I am on my way to work and would appreciate a few more minutes of quiet. Next time you're on the train at rush hour, put a ballet slipper in it.
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Dear people who have not yet RSVPed to my wedding,
PLEASE send in your cards. I don't want to be the annoying bride who calls everyone to check in, but I really need to know asap if you're coming or not. I've already stamped those little cards for you, so just fill them out and drop them in the mail box. Please. So I can move ahead with the preparations for my wedding that is SIX WEEKS AWAY. Thanks a bunch.
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TGIF.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Will it Ever Break?
It's still really hot. I know I already posted about how hot it is, but oh my goodness it's SO hot. The hubs-to-be and I made the mistake of going for a run outside this morning when it was almost raining, but not really, so basically just REALLY humid.It was not our best run ever, needless to say...I'm not sure if I'll ever stop sweating.
This week is going by slowly. It's almost painful. The heat is part of it, but the full work of work is part of it too. I like the four day weeks better. My days of work are much fuller that way. At least the week is half over today.
This weekend is another VT weekend! We're going to the Vermont Brewers Festival to drink our fill (or tickets worth) of Vermont brewed beer, and see the cousins. Hopefully there will be a trip to the lake at some point in the weekend too. I enjoy getting out of the city in the heat, even though the AC in my car is busted.
This week is going by slowly. It's almost painful. The heat is part of it, but the full work of work is part of it too. I like the four day weeks better. My days of work are much fuller that way. At least the week is half over today.
This weekend is another VT weekend! We're going to the Vermont Brewers Festival to drink our fill (or tickets worth) of Vermont brewed beer, and see the cousins. Hopefully there will be a trip to the lake at some point in the weekend too. I enjoy getting out of the city in the heat, even though the AC in my car is busted.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Holy Heat Wave
It has been so hot in Boston. Unbearably hot at times. We went to the movies two nights this week for the AC, and have not eaten dinner at home. Although we don't usually go out this much, it's far too hot to be in our apartment. It's worth the few extra meals out to not make the apartment hotter by turning on the stove.
Sleeping is probably the worst. Yesterday morning, after being uncomfortable and sweaty all night, the hubs-to-be got up early to get ready for work. He found the living room to be several degrees cooler, so he sweetly woke me up and suggested I relocate to the couch for a bit. And oh was it wonderful. I slept better in the hour on the couch than I had all night.
So last night we slept in the living room. We have a pull-out couch that's actually comfortable, so it wasn't a horrible idea. The living room is loud because of the windows and us living on a VERY busy street, but a pair of earplugs later, and I was sound asleep. And not sweating. And I feel like a million bucks today.
Although I did leave the house wearing my slippers...not sure what that says about my good night's sleep...
Sleeping is probably the worst. Yesterday morning, after being uncomfortable and sweaty all night, the hubs-to-be got up early to get ready for work. He found the living room to be several degrees cooler, so he sweetly woke me up and suggested I relocate to the couch for a bit. And oh was it wonderful. I slept better in the hour on the couch than I had all night.
So last night we slept in the living room. We have a pull-out couch that's actually comfortable, so it wasn't a horrible idea. The living room is loud because of the windows and us living on a VERY busy street, but a pair of earplugs later, and I was sound asleep. And not sweating. And I feel like a million bucks today.
Although I did leave the house wearing my slippers...not sure what that says about my good night's sleep...
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Weekend of Wonderful
This weekend was absolutely fabulous. I don't think we could have asked for a better weekend, weather-wise or fun wise.
The James Taylor and Carole King concert was wonderful. The two perform so well together, and this weekend was no exception. They had great energy and it just perfect. I was so happy to be there and enjoyed every song.
The James Taylor and Carole King concert was wonderful. The two perform so well together, and this weekend was no exception. They had great energy and it just perfect. I was so happy to be there and enjoyed every song.
We got engaged in the same place under this same umbrella last summer. Thankfully this year we used it for the sun, not the pouring rain again :)
Then we hopped the Downeaster up to Maine and spent the rest of the weekend with my family. We had a cookout, spent some time on the beach, watched fireworks, and went for a really hot, sweaty run. Despite our train home being delayed last night and not getting home until 11:30pm, it was awesome. We're actually going there for our honeymoon! It will be so wonderful and relaxing.
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