Sometimes I let myself get too far ahead. I get my hopes up and I let my imagination run wild with all the possibilities. And more often than not, I am let down. I end up feeling like I've lost something I never had in the first place. It's not the best trait I have and I know that, but it's a hard one to shake. Even when I tell myself that I won't do it this time, that this time will be different, I end up feeling disappointed.
Right now I'm dealing with the part where I tell myself not to get my hopes up. I am trying so hard not to think about the "what if's" and the "and then we could's." I haven't gotten the blow of defeat yet, but it's hard to believe that's not what's coming next.
Part if the problem is that I am terribly impatient (another quality of mine that I could stand to work on). I don't like waiting to find out. And since I have more time to think than I care to have the imagination comes into play. You see the problem? I am trying to stay positive. Tell myself that it's too soon to know anything, so just put it out of my head for now and be excited if something does happen, rather than be annoyed that nothing has as of yet. Not everyone works on my pace (or as quickly as I'd like) so I just have to "hang tight" and see what happens...
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